Once upon a time there was an existing individual, who as any other had been going thru this normal way we seem to call life, her wings had been scorched and spent her time as the mere mortal she was finding a true reason, an explanation to the never-ending hunger at the bottomless pit of her soul. She had felt a void every time her gaze was lost in the night’s darkness long before her presence had ever mattered, pondering what was missing she withheld from dreams and watched others rise to theirs. She smiled thou sadness was her constant companion, until one day the greatest miracle happened. She met…him.
The encounter occurred on an unexpected day, where they were both gentle to each other as if trying to understand one another’s nature, til this day she’s never forgotten his eyes, his words, nor has he ever left the world they lived and created in her heart, although he’s nowhere to be found the doors of her soul have always remained open and her heart awaiting his return. His existence became her strength and unwavering life force. Many times she wished to tell him so many things that were locked away inside herself but could barely say “I love you and would convey it to him in “Tum mera sab kuch ho Janu”. Still today she smiles and whispers to the rain “ye mausam ki baarish
ye baarish ka paani
ye paani ki boondein
tujhe hi to DhoonRhein
ye milne ki khwaahish
ye khwaahish puraani
ho poori tujhi se
meri ye kahaani” hoping the message is felt and carried on in that beautiful melody her heart sings only for him. If he only knew she revives within that rainfall and dies once it’s gone. Other times rushing into it she cries desperately begging the rain “Stay a little longer with me so I can see his image flowing thru you”, if he only knew she’s travelled thru oceans of time to meet his soul in her dreams, if he only knew she sees the colors his love awakened in her bloodstream those flowing inside her heart, were imprinted on her soul as well, she no longer sees the world a vast nothing, but sees thru his eyes the grace of everything even when things seem to go wrong, there is always the thankfulness flowing within the rain that falls from her eyes. Each rain drop still saying “Main tumse bhot pyar karti hoon Janu” its because of you that I see vast oceans of life where there was once a lifeless desert, one glimpse of you and I received an oasis that drenched my soul and brought me back to loving myself thru your memories. The very same that keep me going and moving forward…still waiting for you.
Mubarak ho Mere Saiyaan Re, for being my inspiration…you never left, I could never let you go…